i've made promises that i intend to keep, but i despise you for the stupid things you've done. i wish i could move on and forget you, but you're making it harder for me. right when im doing fine after all the damage you've done, you come back somehow and mess with my mind. i loved you then, and i love you now and forever. i wish i could say as a friend, but i love you more than that. when people ask me how i'm doing, i say that im doing better than before which is true.. but at times i feel like im living a lie and in complete denial. i keep on wanting to ask you if you ever did love me, but i keep reminding myself that at a point during our good times.. you really did love me, more than i loved you :/ i guess jus because you loved me and i loved you, it doesnt mean that we were meant to be.. but if we were, we'll find our way back together. but please, dont play with my mind and heart.. i think you've caused enough misery so far. i dont want to be trying to continue my days not being able to call myself YOURS with you telling me "i love you" when you probably dont mean it. i dont want to be your rebound. dont say anything you dont mean, its best if you left me alone like you did before. dont bother me and give me time to recover from everything. i hate that i love you soo much. it hurts that i stilll love you..
