i forgot to post it last night & i dont feel like continuing..
im devistated. 6:10PM, i got a text message from him saying,
"umm daryenne i hate to do this..ugh i love you but i think
we should just be friends before one of us winds up getting hurt"
i spent five days miserable thinking about him 24/7.
i didnt want to tell him anything but now its tooo late :/
i called him & asked him if he was busy and if i could tell him
something and he said that i could always talk to him..
and i asked him what's wrong and he told me nothing.
then he told me he was scared.. and daamn, i dunno what the hell
happpened! the light of my life was taken out in a split second..
everything that seemed so perfect was shattered. he broke
through my walls so easily and i didnt even try to stop him.
it was love at first sight and i thought it was imposssible.
the things he told me made me so happy but so scared at the
same time because i never loved someone the way that i loved him.
i cherish all the moments i spent with him. and even if he got
on my nerves and i wanted my space, it made me happy to
have him attached to me. it actually made me feel wanted
and he made me realize why i keep on getting my heartbroken..
its because i want to find what i found in him.. LOVE.
i kno that it may have seemed too fast, but i kno this was real.
he was scared of getting hurt, and i was scared of getting hurt too.
i think we're jus too much alike :/ he told me he's afraid that im
tooo good for him and he's scared that he's not the best for me
and that i'll find someone better than him in the future.
it hurt me that he even thought that because he's the best
thing that has ever happened to me and i dont want to lose him.
i dont kno if he doesnt trust me or something but i love him
very very much. i jus heard a moped pass by.. and i looked
at the window and listened to it pass by and i turned my head
back to the computer and broke down even more.. everywhere
i go, he haunts me.. during school i even smelt him next to me.
the roads remind me of him teasing me about my "manapuas"
and whenever i look at my hands i have two rubberbands..
two are missing because he has them. and all of a sudden..
my tears stopped because he was calling. i'll be back to continue on..
